I'VE FINALLY MADE MY DECISIONS...

after days of emoing... drinking and getting drunk.. ive made my decision.. i plan to go away from kuching to study automotive engineering... as far as possible.. i have always think dat i must stay in kch.. cos theres too many things i cant let go off.. now i just noticed dat.. i have ntg... in this case.. ive planned to resit my accountin paper and pass... graduate foundation and leave kuching as soon as possible.. the life in kch for me is just a pain in the ass.. i might also be losing the one i love for the 3rd time.. which makes me feel like a loser.. all those times.. my parents give me wadeva i wan.. this is when the real thing starts.. not everything we wish for will come true in real life.. my parents freezed my pocket money and stop repairing my car and want me to stay at home and can only drive a lousy kancil because of my snoobish and selfish attitude.. they wan me to think how hard it is to earn money because they dont want me to grow up to b an useless guy which can onli depend on them..


i reli hope dat the decisions i made this time is correct...

THE REAL SHIT KICKS IN IN 5 MORE DAYS!!!

this is the chinese zodiac for 2009.. im born in the snake year.. so i will just post everything about the snake year onli.. as u all noe.. this is a chinese zodiac.. so it onli will be accurate startin from the 1st day of CNY...

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The Snake


Intelligent and highly intuitive are two of the Snake’s many fine qualities. He makes an amusing and romantic friend with a definite flirtatious streak. When challenged or criticised he can be a sore loser. The Snake is very lucky with money and is fond of the odd bet or two. He is quick-witted and enjoys reading, music and occasionally the paranormal side of life.

Forecast for 2009 For the Snake, 2009 will be quite fast-paced and demanding and they will need to remain flexible and positive to enjoy it. Romance features strongly and for the single Snake, this could be the year to start a serious relationship. Financially, impulse buys should be kept under control and risks should be minimised. 2009 will be an excellent year for self-discovery and reviewing recreational interests and hobbies. April to June will present great social opportunities and new friendships. October and November will shine on the work front.

Interesting Snake Facts
Zodiac Stone: Opal
Special Flower: Passionflower
Best Hours: 9-11 am
Season: Spring
Horoscope Colors: Brown Gold, Green

time to grow up...

im turning 20 end of this year.. and where am i heading to?? i should start thinking about my future.. try to think further.. and set targets.. try to achieve all of them.. was so fckin emo yesterday due to problems.. been hurtin and makin ppl angry and sad whole day which i think im very childish and foolish.. i have to learn how to overcome my problems.. stop acting like an asshole.. and stop makin ppl feel angry and sad.. a million apologies to those i have hurt..


sorry~

very very very very very very very very very very very SORRY..

due to my bad mood and unconcious mind.. i made someone angry and unhappy.. i would like to say SORRY and i promise it will never happen again.. pls accept my apologies...

I WISH TO BE HAPPY!!!

i reli wish to b happy





but everything seems wrong.... making me feel like crying







when all of us were small... innocent.. simple thinking... everything seems easy.. we live life without any worries..

as we grow older and wiser... smart.. we think of our future.. everything seems complicated.. now everyday we live.. is a burden

when the time comes... theres alot to think of in every single way.. where ever we go.. we think of alot of things..

for example.. our love ones... financial.. and many others..

BUT!!! i reli do think.. most of us are suffering more in love rather den financial.. money isnt reli dat hard to earn.. all u nid is to be hardworking.. love on the other hand has a very complicated meaning.. it means alot of things.. even if we r hardworking.. the one u love will not neccesary love u back.. we can have a steady income because our salaries and allowances are always fixed and are always received at the end/beginning of the month .. love is different.. one month has 31 days.. in the 31 days.. everything can change.. and the outcome is always different everyday..

how envy it is to see those ppl who r in relationship.. so loving.. caring.. happy which reminds me dat im so lonely.. its like.. ur playin a game without any players or bots in it.. see how boring dat is.. and dats the feeling im having now.. everyday i dont feel like gettin out of bed.. bcos.. everything i do.. i'll still b doin it alone and all by myself.. i rather sleep and dream bcos onli dreams can make me happy.. the real world sux alot...

speaking of relationships.. sometimes its hard to maintain it because the couple dunno how to satisfy each other.. doesnt mean wad the guy does.. the girl will like.. or the opposite.. which leads to arguements and quarreling that can lead to breakups or worse..

guys who keep concerning their partners are said to be a control freak who doesnt trust them.. dats not wad guys think of when they do dat.. they do trust their partners 110%!!! its just they are worried about the ppl surrounding their partners.. whether it will harm their innocent partners or not..

girls are different.. i understand they do not like to b controlled... but they must also noe y we guys do dat.. we guys cant afford to lose you.. like i said b4... i have alot of money.. but i cant afford to lose u.. because money cant buy u who r the onli 1 in the whole world.. i cant find other you!!

dont get mad if one of the partners show an angry face because they r jealous... one shud b thankful dat the partner show their jealousy because they reli concern about you...

if it doesnt work out.. just make sure.. if u wan him/her to b happy... let her do wadeva she wants dat can make her happy.. and dat includes if they have to b wif another person.. but if she reli do think dat u r still the best for her.. she will come back to u and give u another chance..

lets talk about parents... i noe they face problems in their work.. but its so unfair.. its not onli them who have problems.. we as their children do have problems of our own.. they dont reli understand.. dats y we nid frens.. some topics cant b discussed wif our parents.. we nid frens who reli understand bcos we have the same thinking due to our similar age.. i go home when the sun almost rise everyday... why?? is it bcos im a bad kid and like to go clubbing or do drugs?? NO!! i dont even smoke.. how the hell im suppose to do drugs?? i just dont feel happy at home.. looking at them.. they seem so stress due to their work.. they give us unhappy faces dat can make us unhappy too...

thats all i have to say for now.. i gotta admit.. i almost cry while posting this blog.. this is how painful life is.. sry if any of the words in this post had offended the readers.. i have to say.. if i die now.. i leave ntg but regrets..

thanks for readin this very very boring post.. i hope u ppl out there will understand..

BYE BYE WORLD!!!

simple post

played badminton
sprain ankle
ankle swollen
cripple
blue black
now better
can walk
run

conclusion = TOMORO BADMINTON!!!

hahah

whittay!

its been quite sometimes since i last blog. now i wana update on my car. heres some pix